2003-09-29
Why do woman have boobs? So you can have something to look at while you're talking to them!
I met up with an old friend last night and we hung out again tonight, it was awesome catching up with her. I have flowers from some guy who put them in my hair which was very sweet. What happened to the romantic man? I wish more guys were like that. Off to bed. I drink too much, but it's good. :-)
2003-09-28
Everthing I thought I knew keeps getting chucked out the window everyday and I have to re-learn how to do it all over again. Everything I thought I believed in is in question. I don't know who I am, what I want or what's going on anymore. I feel lost and in the dark bumping into people but never staying. Social skills I should have learned a long time ago aren't there because I wasn't there. I missed all of that but I'm learning it now, slowly but surely. I'm learning that who you are isn't just a set of beliefs or statements, I am so much more what I preach or others preach at me. We're all just full of shit. That's why today the song in my head will be "Cherry Pie" because I do know this, I'm a fly mother fucker. Word.
2003-09-26
If anyoen pisses me off tonight I'm gonna go crazy on their asses while singing "I'm a Little Tea Pot". That's right, I went there.
2003-09-26
Man I was hungover today at work. I had thw bend over and you're still drunk feeling. Sucked my balls. Tonight is Bertino's huge ass party, should be a good time if Pete stops being an asshole. I can't wait. I have to take a bath and eat dinner but then I'm outta here for another night of getting shit faced! YEAH BABY!
2003-09-25
So the show was awesome but was a bit hindered for the fact that my knee which, had been previously hurt, was swelling like a mother fucker and my feet were killing me. Man o man that shit hurts. I'm icing it down right now, God this hurts. I can't stand on it for too long with out this happening and I was on it all friggin day. Oh well, it was worth it to see them. I hope Kat isn't pee'd we had to leave before going to talk to her friends from the band but I'm in some serious damn pain or I would have stayed. God this hurts.
2003-09-24
So I'm going to a show tonight with Kat at St. Amdrew's "My Morning Jacket", should be a good show. I sold the PIMP mobile and I'll be getting another one, a Mazda Miata next week so that will be fun. I love convertibles. I have to go to work soon which sucks but oh well. I hope I get more hours soon. I'm in the process of downloading all the South Parks I lost when Mark fucked up the computer and my MPS (which will take FOEVER cuz I had almost 2000). I don't think he really fucked it up I think he's just too lazy to send them to me or that's what everyones been telling me. Oh well. I have my Family Guy's to watch so he can lick my balls. I was watching some last night on the phone with Ang so she could hear it, I think she liked it:-) Well I'm off to make the big bucks. The fatty cat coated me with his fur, do you think that goes good with cookies?
2003-09-23
I told someone today that I was going to shove a boot up their pee hole, man I'm hardcore.
Just know that when you see me today that I have "Eye of the Tiger" in my head and I'm not afraid to use it.
2003-09-23
Here Without You
A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don�t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I�m dreaming of your face
I�m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there�s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go
I�m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there�s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won�t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it�s all said and done
it gets hard but it won�t take away my love
I�m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there�s only you and me
I�m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there�s only you and me
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2003-09-23
I can't fix what happened. It hurts. why can't I make everything better? Why can't I make it work? Why did I fail? Why does it hurt so bad? Why do I feel so lonely? Why do I miss sleeping next to you? Why does everything lately seem like a dream? Why doesn't anyone else understand? Why do I feel so alone? How crazy is this? What the hell is going on?
2003-09-22
Some days man...God I hate today. It just sucks. Sorry I haven't updated much but my internet connection has been a bit messed but we are switching to Comcast this friday. There are people I need to stay away from because getting too close to them causes too much drama and I don't need it or want it. I'll be polite but we aren't gonna hang out anymore it should be kept seperate I think. Work sucks balls. People have already started talking shit about me behind my back but what can I expect, they are all chicks and all girls do is talk shit. I honestly don't even really care all that much either, I just wish I'd quit f-ing up at work. I showed up late on thursday because I was in Monroe and had to haul ass to Livonia which is like an hour away. I called them but I was still 5 minutes late. Then on friday I didn't come in until 2pm like I always do when I didn't know they had scheduled me at 12:30. Today there was a problem with an order and it came down to my word about faxing an order and another chick from another store. I knew I faxed it and I even had evidence but I don't think my boss believed me. It's easier to blame the new chick I guess. I'm not sure I like it there yet. There's one cool chick but she's the one constantly telling me about the shit talking behind my back. I guess they were complaining about my handwriting. I was like "Yeah I know, it's horrible I told you all that my FIRST day here." Oh well fuck them. People suck. I suck. Today sucks.
2003-09-19
So it's offically over with us and I don't know how to feel about that. I'm kinda in shock. My heart knew it for a long time but my head keeps trying to rationalize it. I don't know. I need beer.
2003-09-18
I heard a song today that reminded me of you. It was "How's It Gonna Be?" and my heart stopped. I just stood there feeling a rush of emotions flood over me. I had to gather myself because I was at work. I couldn't help but wonder how is it going to be? How will you remember me? Will we ever see each other again? I'll never regret what we had but I will always regret that we couldn't make it work. Fighting back tears is hard and so is this.
2003-09-18
Last night I was at the park standing on the pier watching the waves crash into the dock. I was trying to think about my life and where I am right now. It's a crazy time for me. Things seem so confusing. I don't know what to think anymore about anything. I'm having a great time while I'm trying to figure things out though. Many many new adventures and it's awesome. Maybe this is one of those things I shouldn't think to death and just let my life happen. Yeah that sounds the easiest.
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